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Apr 28, 2011

wavering

a rocky journey that full of falls and stumbles
that most of the time, are surprises to me.
they need my solid answer.
i dont have that.
im always unknowing.
so for now,
i say no.
it breaks my heart, a little bit, i guess.
but somehow, i feel great. like a massive headache that's forever gone.
like ive gotten something out of my chest and off of my shoulder.
dear stanford,
inshallah.
maybe next time. maybe.
im happy with where i am right now.
the bright side is,
i kind of feel like it is the right decision because right now, im certain to go into health psychology and stanford doesnt have that. clinical, yes.
ive talked to a lecturer of mine and some great malaysian psychologists, they told me that some of the best health psychology departments are in the U.K.
should i do my graduate studies there?
well, the future is a blurry matter. i used to plan everything ahead and to be honest, i hate that haha
over the past few years, ive stopped planning. things do get out of control sometimes but ive found some kind of calmnesse in that.
ive been thinking about going into medical school again but of course if i opted for an M.D, i'd definitely go into psychiatry- which i dont think i'd ever do.
sometimes, i feel like quitting school and just continue working in this hectic, propagated journalism world. im having fun but it gets dull over time.
and sometimes, i feel like just taking out my saving and start a small business of a bakery or a car workshop.
haha i dont know.
oh well,
amalina, youre only 21 (coming into 22). lets just have fun doing what other 21-year-olds are doing. so amalina, stay focus and make the important people proud of you. which, in other words, hit the books and bust your ass studying!
jeez. i do need such motivation haha (btw, i know its creepy talking in a 3rd-person)

until next time,
xo

Apr 18, 2011

tumblr

check it outttt. finally! ehehe :P

maliomars.tumblr.com

Apr 17, 2011

the end

you wouldnt know how much it actually hurts.
you wouldnt know how does it really feel.
i guess,
everyone who's in love, is pretty much the same.

you hope,
you give in,
you just love.

if only you knew...
how much am i hurting.

thanks, though, for telling me that it's finally the time
to stop hoping and giving in and loving you.

thanks

Apr 14, 2011

i dont have much

i met up with ryan.
:) and it was all good and overwhelming in the same time.
he told me something. wow. ryan. hahaha
i never thought of him changing into such a new person. the person that i met just now, is not even close to who he was 5years back.
ive never met such good guy that's not selfish at all. you got me there, ryan.
thank you for telling me the truth :) inside, i love you. as a bud that i know i'll always have.
thank you for telling me the right thing to do, i really need that.
i can only hope, that i'll be making the right choice.
it's not that im scared of getting hurt again.
im scared if i'd look like a dumbass again- someone that would always be taken easily.
you see,
i dont have that much of a strength to endure all that anymore.

xo

Apr 12, 2011

para ti :) una persona especial,,

Si te pudiera contar tantas cosas que han pasado en mi vida, te darias cuenta que yo deje de escribir cartas hace mucho tiempo, no solo deje de escribir, sino que tambien deje de creer y de sentir, pero en este momento de mi vida apareciste y no se como ni porque fue pero me has hecho sentir cosas que hace mucho no sentia, al igual que tu, pienso que eres lo mas hermoso que me ha pasado y realmente agradezco el hecho de haberte visto nuevamente ya que surgio en mi algo maravilloso, como es el amor que siento por ti, tambien se que estamos lejos, pero realmente creo que la distancia ha ayudado a que crezca lo que siento por ti y lo mejor es que ahora te voy a tener cerca durante un mes, eso es lo mejor que me ha pasado, despues de haber compartido contigo esos 2 hermosos dias, no sabes las ganas que tengo de verte y tocarte, poder besar tus labios, acariciar tus mejillas y poder mirar esos hermosos ojos que inspiran tanta dulzura.

Te voy a estar esperando, y contare todos los dias hasta que te pueda tener junto a mi otra vez
Te quiero como no tienes idea.

p/s: no sieste quien pero por favor, escucha a tu corazon :)

xo


hey :) the name is amalina but im cool with mali. or whatever nice. im pretty laid-back. im never serious. haha well yea so get annoyed. im a kid at heart, maybe a hippie too. talk to me. get to know me. only then you can judge me. :) roar! facebook me! lala effy isya thirah ieka momoi meeza effa buddy nazia aizat irfan fara amy kak izzat syasya ryehan sabrina lia yesterdays January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 July 2010 August 2010 September 2010 October 2010 November 2010 December 2010 January 2011 February 2011 March 2011 April 2011 May 2011 June 2011	Apr 28, 2011 wavering a rocky journey that full of falls and stumbles that most of the time, are surprises to me. they need my solid answer. i dont have that. im always unknowing. so for now, i say no. it breaks my heart, a little bit, i guess. but somehow, i feel great. like a massive headache that's forever gone. like ive gotten something out of my chest and off of my shoulder. dear stanford, inshallah. maybe next time. maybe. im happy with where i am right now. the bright side is, i kind of feel like it is the right decision because right now, im certain to go into health psychology and stanford doesnt have that. clinical, yes. ive talked to a lecturer of mine and some great malaysian psychologists, they told me that some of the best health psychology departments are in the U.K. should i do my graduate studies there? well, the future is a blurry matter. i used to plan everything ahead and to be honest, i hate that haha over the past few years, ive stopped planning. things do get out of control sometimes but ive found some kind of calmnesse in that. ive been thinking about going into medical school again but of course if i opted for an M.D, i'd definitely go into psychiatry- which i dont think i'd ever do. sometimes, i feel like quitting school and just continue working in this hectic, propagated journalism world. im having fun but it gets dull over time. and sometimes, i feel like just taking out my saving and start a small business of a bakery or a car workshop. haha i dont know. oh well, amalina, youre only 21 (coming into 22). lets just have fun doing what other 21-year-olds are doing. so amalina, stay focus and make the important people proud of you. which, in other words, hit the books and bust your ass studying! jeez. i do need such motivation haha (btw, i know its creepy talking in a 3rd-person) until next time, xo 02:39 · Apr 18, 2011 tumblr check it outttt. finally! ehehe :P maliomars.tumblr.com 23:52 · Apr 17, 2011 the end you wouldnt know how much it actually hurts. you wouldnt know how does it really feel. i guess, everyone who's in love, is pretty much the same. you hope, you give in, you just love. if only you knew... how much am i hurting. thanks, though, for telling me that it's finally the time to stop hoping and giving in and loving you. thanks 10:17 · Apr 14, 2011 i dont have much i met up with ryan. :) and it was all good and overwhelming in the same time. he told me something. wow. ryan. hahaha i never thought of him changing into such a new person. the person that i met just now, is not even close to who he was 5years back. ive never met such good guy that's not selfish at all. you got me there, ryan. thank you for telling me the truth :) inside, i love you. as a bud that i know i'll always have. thank you for telling me the right thing to do, i really need that. i can only hope, that i'll be making the right choice. it's not that im scared of getting hurt again. im scared if i'd look like a dumbass again- someone that would always be taken easily. you see, i dont have that much of a strength to endure all that anymore. xo 06:22 · Apr 12, 2011 para ti :) una persona especial,, Si te pudiera contar tantas cosas que han pasado en mi vida, te darias cuenta que yo deje de escribir cartas hace mucho tiempo, no solo deje de escribir, sino que tambien deje de creer y de sentir, pero en este momento de mi vida apareciste y no se como ni porque fue pero me has hecho sentir cosas que hace mucho no sentia, al igual que tu, pienso que eres lo mas hermoso que me ha pasado y realmente agradezco el hecho de haberte visto nuevamente ya que surgio en mi algo maravilloso, como es el amor que siento por ti, tambien se que estamos lejos, pero realmente creo que la distancia ha ayudado a que crezca lo que siento por ti y lo mejor es que ahora te voy a tener cerca durante un mes, eso es lo mejor que me ha pasado, despues de haber compartido contigo esos 2 hermosos dias, no sabes las ganas que tengo de verte y tocarte, poder besar tus labios, acariciar tus mejillas y poder mirar esos hermosos ojos que inspiran tanta dulzura. Te voy a estar esperando, y contare todos los dias hasta que te pueda tener junto a mi otra vez Te quiero como no tienes idea. p/s: no sieste quien pero por favor, escucha a tu corazon :) xo 11:30 ·