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hey :) the name is amalina but im cool with mali.
or whatever nice.
im pretty laid-back.
im never serious.
haha well yea so get annoyed.
im a kid at heart, maybe a hippie too.
talk to me.
get to know me.
only then you can judge me.
:)
roar!
yesterdays
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Apr 28, 2011
wavering

a rocky journey that full of falls and stumbles
that most of the time, are surprises to me.
they need my solid answer.
i dont have that.
im always unknowing.
so for now,
i say no.
it breaks my heart, a little bit, i guess.
but somehow, i feel great. like a massive headache that's forever gone.
like ive gotten something out of my chest and off of my shoulder.
dear stanford,
inshallah.
maybe next time. maybe.
im happy with where i am right now.
the bright side is,
i kind of feel like it is the right decision because right now, im certain to go into health psychology and stanford doesnt have that. clinical, yes.
ive talked to a lecturer of mine and some great malaysian psychologists, they told me that some of the best health psychology departments are in the U.K.
should i do my graduate studies there?
well, the future is a blurry matter. i used to plan everything ahead and to be honest, i hate that haha
over the past few years, ive stopped planning. things do get out of control sometimes but ive found some kind of calmnesse in that.
ive been thinking about going into medical school again but of course if i opted for an M.D, i'd definitely go into psychiatry- which i dont think i'd ever do.
sometimes, i feel like quitting school and just continue working in this hectic, propagated journalism world. im having fun but it gets dull over time.
and sometimes, i feel like just taking out my saving and start a small business of a bakery or a car workshop.
haha i dont know.
oh well,
amalina, youre only 21 (coming into 22). lets just have fun doing what other 21-year-olds are doing. so amalina, stay focus and make the important people proud of you. which, in other words, hit the books and bust your ass studying!
jeez. i do need such motivation haha (btw, i know its creepy talking in a 3rd-person)

until next time,
xo